self-hatredn.
/ˌsɛlfˈheɪtrᵻd/, U.S. /ˌsɛlfˈheɪtrəd/ Hatred of oneself, esp. of one's perceived or actual self as opposed to the person one would like to be. Later also: an instance of this.
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the mind > emotion > hatred > [noun] > hatred of oneself
self-hate1576
self-hatred1581
self-loathing1635
1581 T. Rogers tr. N. Hemmingsen Faith of Church Militant xxxvi. 290 As there is then a doble self loue: so there is a double selfe hatred.
1673 R. Strange tr. J. E. Nieremberg Adoration in Spirit & Truth iv. x. 439 If self hatred [L. odio tui] brought no other advantage besides loving God, that were sufficient.
1776 G. Campbell Philos. of Rhetoric I. xi. 313 Are not these..the various ways of self-destroying, to which, according to their various tastes, men are prompted by the same universal principle of self-hatred?
1865 D. G. Rossetti Let. 21 Nov. (1965) II. 581 Ambition, i.e. the feeling of pure rage and self-hatred when any one else does better than you do.
1896 A. Thorold tr. Dialogue of St. Catherine of Siena lxiii. 134 Digging up the root of self-love, with the knife of self-hatred and the love of virtue.
1942 C. S. Lewis Screwtape Lett. xiv. 72 All the abjection and self-hatred are designed, in the long run, solely for this end.
1996 C. Kitzinger in D. Bell & R. Klein Radically Speaking (1997) 98 The vast majority..go on struggling for change..in spite of their own fears, self-doubts, personal angst, and self-hatreds.
2017 Daily Star (Nexis) 25 Jan. (Features section) 5 It was self-hatred, low self-esteem, thinking that I couldn't do anything right, not thinking I was worthy of living any more.
This entry has been updated (OED Third Edition, January 2018; most recently modified version published online March 2022).
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