reluctantly
/rɪˈlʌkt(ə)ntli
/adverb
In an unwilling and hesitant way: he reluctantly agrees to do his duty...
- His father disapproves of the pram, which his mother reluctantly returns.
- He finds himself reluctantly succumbing to his suppressed passion.
- Inefficient or poorly located facilities are closed, sometimes reluctantly, by a board of directors.