self-torturing
1 of 2adjective
self-tor·tur·ing ˌself-ˈtȯrch-riŋ 
-ˈtȯr-chə-
: self-tormenting
… we're not just holding onto social links with our exes because we're a bunch of self-torturing maniacs.
Gabrielle Moss
Gabrielle Mossself-torturing thoughts
All those self-torturing questions. Why had he let her take the bus that night? Why hadn't he driven her? Neil Darbyshire
Neil Darbyshireself-torturing
2 of 2noun
plural self-torturings
: self-torture
his endless self-torturing over past mistakes
… the personal loss and emotional deprivation she had suffered in her self-torturings … Mark Bostridge
Mark Bostridge
Word History
First Known Use
Adjective
1629, in the meaning defined above
Noun
1803, in the meaning defined above