self-loathing
noun
self-loath·ing ˌself-ˈlō-ṯẖiŋ 
: loathing of oneself : self-hatred
acting out of fear and self-loathing
… the idea that the self-absorption and egotism of the narcissist are a pose to mask their opposite: a deep well of self-loathing and low self-esteem.
Jeffrey Kluger
Jeffrey Kluger self-loathing adjective
… his life as a self-loathing sensualist, an incautious but easily damaged artist … A. L. Kennedy
A. L. Kennedy … stars as a self-loathing English writer who writes Hollywood sitcoms for his actress wife … Giselle Benatar
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Word History
First Known Use
1635, in the meaning defined above
self-loathing
noun
as in self-hate
Synonyms & Similar Words
Relevance
- self-hate
- self-disgust
- diffidence
- self-doubt
- altruism
- humility
- unselfishness
- timidity
- bashfulness
- humbleness
- timidness
- demureness
- passiveness
- shyness
- modesty
- passivity
Antonyms & Near Antonyms
- smugness
- egotism
- complacency
- vanity
- ego
- pride
- pridefulness
- conceitedness
- complacence
- vainglory
- conceit
- pomposity
- pompousness
- vainness
- swelled head
- vaingloriousness
- bighead
- swellheadedness
- self-admiration
- confidence
- amour propre
- self-love
- self-satisfaction
- self-congratulation
- self-opinion
- assurance
- self-glory
- self-importance
- self-conceit
- self-esteem
- self-assumption
- self-confidence
- self-assurance
- self-righteousness